so it's the first day of december and that means Christmas is a few weeks away along with a brand new year. I don't know if I am ready for Christmas. I have so much to get done and what seems like little time to do it. It seems difficult to be joyful and thankful when I'm running around stressing about what presents I still need to get and what I am actually going to buy. I was watching Miracle on 34th St. (the newer one) last night with my friends emily and janet and I thought to myself... I wish I still believed in Santa. I know that Christmas isn't about Santa but those days were so simple. Heartfelt belief in something that brought so much joy was great. I just wish things were simple. That I could enjoy Christmas with the same excitement and joy that I did as a child. Where did it go? What happened to that? I wish I could find it again... I pray that Jesus helps me find Peace during this season of joy and giving.